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♪格拉迪斯๑ ™→我是個懶人⊙。←give mi A b®ⓔak 2009/11/8 i feel sooooooooo violatedy ppl have been so fake?
y they forgot about u when u turned to them?
y they didnt remember u even u were being so nice to them?
my world is spinning, and the whole world is sooooooo freaking out..
ppl wear masks when they talk,they dont even try to get rid of them
when u wanna show ur inner feeling.
f 'em allllllllll. 2009/6/12 memoirs ... it has been couple of years till i put on some words here.its thundering outside,,and reminds me of the terrible date last yr. it was thundering ,too, and that day i lose someone forever.i cant tell how i miss him,,but to pour out how damn bad i beared to live without him.i didnt see him for almost a yr,,and i wont see him anymore,he was the person who loved me most in this world,who tolerate me a lot,,then whom,i can never tell a word of appreciation anymore.
i dont know why im here to mention all these.just i missed him so much yesterday that i could hardly sleep for the whole night.i took out the phone ,seeing his pic.his eyes were full of kindness ,watching me smoothly,,as if to say, "hey,,honey .im pretty good here,just try to be good and be happy."at that moment,,i couldnt help my tear pouring,,all the feelings deep inside went out in a sudden.yes,,he was gone,,leaving us,,to somewhere we didnt know.i felt like thousands of needles pricking down here in my heart,, i couldnt tell the tough emotions. only miss him.i laid down in the darkness,,thinking whether he was living happily or not.though there was an awful exam this morning,,i still couldnt get rid of the feelings. sometimes i pretend he is still here with us,,i even tell myself when i come home,,he will be there ,giving me a big warm hug. but these scences seem to be so years-ago.the only way to reach them is just remembering,,i m wondering if its a lil bit dull playing this game myself.however,its the best way to cut down the painfulness yearning him.how badly i wish to bring him back,,all of the families go out,having dinner,,going side-seeing.but they are kinda visional,,i even wanna make up the truth that we have bn together all along.yet the truth is there reminding me to the facts.sometimes i hope it was totally a nightmare,,when i woke up,anything s gonna be ok as well.or it was a joke with no fun...but i failed i m rarely put these feelings into my dailylife,,but they are kinda freaky ,jumping out of mind now and then,destroying my day dreaming.i dont know how to handle them,,just choosing to be alone,,not speaking with others,,blocking down myself in the cranny. like a total asshole,huh?! the truth is they cant even feel the real me inside.i laugh with them,,making silly jokes,appearing happy and strong.nevertheless,how can they feel my fragmental heart.so what can i do? i dont even dare to act mushy,i dont wanna depress them,,and i dont want them to worry abt me.nobody gets the real thoughts of mine,,pardonably,,they dont even lose their beloved person. dear D,though im not with you,,my heart s going up there with you ,,always.u wont be alone there,,cuz mom and i r by ur side,,i promise.u left behind a lot of recollections.i m gonna cherish them in the rest of my life,,from the bottom of my heart. time may be the best of a healer,,me dont think so.time will never relieve the bruise of the heart.the heart smashed into pieces,,can it ever be pasted? are you gonna be one of the stars guiding me up there in the sky?are you gonna watch me when i m asleep? are you gonna be there for me when im frustrated?how i miss u,,how i miss u ,soooooooo much,,i m gonna shout out at the top of my lungs,,I MISS U!! can u hear me? there s no substitute for you anylonger,,im so sorry not saying i love you when i was by your side,,the chance slipped away,, with full of regrets here,,i finally realise the meaning or "you r not gonna cherish them untill u lose." if i got three days to be with you,, id rather pay back with all my life..i want you back,,and i cant keep thinking abt u..maybe im going too far,,im lil bit under the pressure,,tell me ,, what can i do...am i crushing!! 2005/8/20 说真的都懒得更新了...感觉着短短的一个月时间发生了好多好多事情...发觉我自己也变了好多..真的，不知道是不是变得成熟了呢？高三了，有些人有些事~~~不是那么想当然得...该面对的还需面对...压力好大的，来自个人的来自学习上的，抑或是人之间的，有时候总感觉很好笑...真是无聊啊！！
那天跟那个新来的吃宵夜...才发觉他真的好白痴~~人古古的，讲话超级好笑...竟然还说我长得好笑...晕~~反正在这里我先鄙视他，嘿嘿~~他也不知道啦~~b4b4b4b4b4b4b4----ZDS
前几天我们开了party啦~~也许是我们在学校里开的最后一场晚会了~虽然说并不是像期待的那么好...但还是enjoy的，因为大家都好nice~nice的...也顶啦！！总感觉有好多事情要说，可是都不知从哪说起了...也许是压力积压到了一定阶段的结果吧~
不管怎么说，我都会加油得~~毕竟我还算是个“开朗”的人，没有你的压力就不会有我的动力...tx~ ~i didn't give it~
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回學校就不能經常來啦在此先跟各位道個別祝大家好運嚕b^^d
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